count the days
take my time away
make the sunset stay
let the pain swell up now
cleanse myself
while I think about
someone else
until I forget
fucked up hate
copious heartbreaks
every time I cry
always about you now
pick me up
drive me to my house
go to sleep past 8
hope you dream about me
oh
baby that's just what its all about
eyes cant close
cant go to sleep
what you did to me
I cant turn back now
see my guilt
flowing through my brain
let me disappear
under the moonlight
oh
push me to the side
make me realize
how much I hate love
how much I hate love
tell me I'm alright
but if I were to die
would you give a fuck?
would you give a fuck?
push me to the side
make me realize
how much I hate love
how much I hate love
maybe you cant decide
baby its not your life
push me to the side
tell if I'm alright
tell me if I'm alright
push me to the side
make me realize
how much I hate love
how much I hate love
how much I hate love
how much I hate you
get it out of my head
don't get out of my bed
there's way more chances
filled with dread
I need no more
can't breathe no more
remember
remember
you was up last night
you know that shit ain't right
give up another fight
bitch, I can't see the light
wake up out of bed
get my feelings fed
lungs are full of lead
bitch, I think I'm dead
tell me that you love me
but you really dont
(yuh)
look to the horizon
then I see you stoned
(yuh)
tell me that you need me
text me when you don't
(yuh)
buy me a little something
call me fuckin' broke
(yuh)
fleece joggers
like my skin tone
please give me
another fuckin' bone
rainy weather
run over traffic cones
creased Nikes
Indiana Jones
never siding
always lying
never sliding
never guiding
ay
see me flying
into your grave
keep my hear strands
in the rain
never siding
always lying
never sliding
never guiding
ay
see me flying
into your grave
keep my hear strands
in the rain
(IF YOU AIN'T GOT NO MONEY TAKE YO BROKE AS HO-)
(IF YOU AIN'T GOT NO MONEY TAKE YO BROKE AS HO-)
(IF YOU AIN'T GOT NO MONEY TAKE YO BROKE AS HO-)
(IF YOU AIN'T GOT NO MONEY TAKE YO BROKE AS HO-)
you're empty
of taste
for my
flavor
your slight
smile
I can't savor
your mind
is crystal clear inside
but I know I can't collide
let your silver chain be shy
make the end of the world come by
you're Venus
let the clouds come passing by
beneath us
the puddles reflect the sky
this night
you are
on my
mind
this house
this floor
your fable
sleepless
nights with little sleep
as long as your holding me
let your embrace save me now
but not so literally
you're Venus
give me your apologies
these creatures
all brighten up the sea
you're Venus
your words just poison me
if moons turn
your solar flares hit me
(can't change it, no)
(can't change it)
(can't change it, no)
(can't change it)
(it's faded)
(it's faded)
(I hate it)
(I hate it)
(can't change it, no)
(can't change it)
(can't change it, no)
(can't change it)
(it's faded)
(it's faded)
(I hate it)
(I hate it)
close your eyes
and see
the world inside your head
and tell me
it's fabricated
don't let go
don't learn too much
or you'll be just another fuss
moral conflicts, butterflies
give me all your batshit lies
if there's a man in the stars
will my thoughts still be yours?
if nobody's perfect
then why do we never quit?
if you hear my voice
and not some distant whispers
it should be enough
to see my life in blisters
(can't change it, no)
(can't change it)
(can't change it, no)
(can't change it)
(it's faded)
(it's faded)
(I hate it)
(I hate it)
(can't change it, no)
(can't change it)
(can't change it, no)
(can't change it)
(it's faded)
(it's faded)
(I hate it)
(I hate it)
(can't change it, no)
(can't change it)
(can't change it, no)
(can't change it)
(it's faded)
(it's faded)
(I hate it)
(I hate it)
(can't change it, no)
(can't change it)
(can't change it, no)
(can't change it)
(it's faded)
(it's faded)
(I hate it)
(I hate it)
I'm
sitting in my room
I don't know
where to go
I
don't know why
you can't be with me
any longer
when I
go outside
all I see is you
but you don't say hi
is it me?
do I hate you?
do you hate me?
is it true?
well let's go an celebrate
our inconstant celebate
give me my innocence back
nonsense and parties
with tax rates and dollar trees
let's throw up our policies
(yeah)
my love isn't love, I'm just desperate
knees too deep, get me more sick
cried up eyes in the morning
swallow pills, take it all in
TV screens, all just static
my mind blanks out, I'm dramatic
colored skies like the movies
nothing else ever speaks to me
turn myself in reality
jump to life this technology
these vector eyes they look at me
show me how to go to sleep
I live my life online
'cuz my brain says I won't die
well I'll try
well I'll cry
I live my life online
but the voices say to cry
I live my life online
'cuz my brain says I won't die
well I'll try
well I'll cry
I live my life online
but the voices say to cry
sick with dread and my allergies
pictures frames of my memories
face to face with complexities
my own blood is my enemy
this virus still hangs onto me
while spirits sing and carry me
now tell my why you sit alone
crying on your pillow all soaked?
tears in your eyes
there's different goodbye
and happiness no longer holds
end your life
or survive
I live my life online
'cuz my brain says I won't die
well I'll try
well I'll cry
I live my life online
but the voices say to cry
don't know a single thing about it
don't help me think about it
don't take everything I know away
stare into walls keep crying without it
never have fun without it
go ahead and try to keep away
saving grace I know
feels easier now
but it's sooner than never
don't have anyone to think about
don't have anyone to blush about
don't have anyone to love without you
don't have anyone to sing about
don't have anyone to talk about
don't have anyone to love without you
catch me on the east side
catch me on the west side
eyes half awake
don't even wanna talk
concrete signed with chalk
while the sky is all we fought
let's forget about tomorrow
and keep on the act a lot
yuh
all we fought over was under the stars
never trying to remember the times we fell apart
look into my eyes do you ever even see me
am I ever fake or are you just trying to deceive me?
(solo)
(足ない嘘つかないわ I can't lie to you)
am I crazy
as hell?
do you hate me
for myself?
feeling lazy
all my life
when you see me
do you fall down and cry?
what's your name?
what's your name?
where's your face?
where's your face?
what's your name?
what's your name?
not the same
not the same
do you hate me?
or yourself?
are you guilty
on your words?
give you pity
so I can move on
about
After going through alot of self-growth, I think making this album made me realize how valuable it is for me to feel satisfied with myself. Months ago I thought I couldn't do this sort of thing, and now here I am, conquering every problem I had. Without being discontent with myself, I wouldn't be able to accomplish anything. Therefore, this album is about maturing through working by yourself and growing without really realizing it. I've gone through so much self-doubt, and so little self-care that I started treating myself and everyone around me like crap. There's times where I have felt lonely, heartbroken, and useless to others, and my mind would distort and reinforce those ideas. The choices I made in the past were only in the moment, but have burdened me time after time. Having to adjust to this lifestyle where your choices actually matter was kind of though for me, and probably others too. I hope that you, reading this, can relate with this album in some sort of way. Thank you for giving your time to listen to this, from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for bringing back the confidence in me. To the people in the same stage as I am, I hope you will go places in the future, just like I will strive to do so too.
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Big Thank You to the following:
Anthony Izquierdo (Freak Formal) - Production & Instruments for 'CH'
Karla Rocha - Peer Reviewer
Gabriel Rosales - Peer Reviewer, & Brother
My Parents - For Buying me synths <3
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Made with love by REALITY.
credits
released July 25, 2022
Production, Lyrics, and Vocals by Isaac Rosales (REALITY)
'CH' Produced by Anthony Izquierdo (FREAK FORMAL)
Cover art shot & edited by Isaac Rosales
Mixed using Cakewalk by Bandlab
Mastered by Bandlab Mastering
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