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in the dark room of steam
my sorrows unseen
I cant find a way out my head
so I just sit down
please help me drown
pull my hair and
wave at me
I'm just a missed opportunity
all around me
are freaks so sound
voices i hear
but no one around
pictures of my own sanity
falling down all right before me
write a check, write a check
to my demons in a dress
sipping iced tea
while my whole world is in stress
keep my ice cold while I'm twice old
4D chess
black and white
orange sky
gift your gift
pay the price
I've tried
to force you
I'd die
just to warn you
fuckin ride
in the back too
switch your lane
while your sane
put out your cigarette
swervin' ain't past you
cash out at the bank again, feeling like a burden
carry paper bags with my options still uncertain
I think I'm doing better but I went back to my roots
can you tell me why it hurts to take off another noose
fuck you too
now why you up in my business?
let the world take witness
take the bag that I make and bring my world to stitches
swervin', don't know which is which
you dont work for shit, you dont work for shit
sit on your ass like a bitch
drink up the bottle and cry to your mama
talking about your trauma
I don't want to wait
just another day
please just be with me babe
I ain't changing lanes
life ain't just the same
lights out after 8 baby
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you're running, running
on the parking lot
and your vans dirty
why don't you stop
on my way to Ross
with my head down
murky asphalt
cold hands and shivers
tell me how long
you've been on and off
is it cause of me
or was it never real
stay quiet
and kiss my lips
you never switched
what's your deal?
call me on the phone
got me holding long
like the downtown air's
healing my lungs
watch it separate
to an orange sky
instead you talk
to another guy
pictures on my phone
just all are mine
wasn't meant to be
cause you're so shy
I call you my love
you say goodbye
I can't run to you
but I can try
tell me how long (open up your mind)
you've been on and off (don't be so shy)
is it cause of me (be my valentine)
or was it never real (be my love, oh my)
stay quiet (open up your mind)
and kiss my lips (don't be so shy)
you never switched (be my valentine)
what's your deal? (be my love, oh my)
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I know your head
I can't pretend
I hope it ends
can we be friends?
when i saw you for the first time
i just thought it'd be the last time
seeing your face everyday now
can we just be nothing more?
I've known you for so long
but you're not singing the right song
I got to move on
but i don't wanna leave you behind
I know your mind
and I think
we'll find
reasons we're apart
yeah, you fucked it up from the start
I know your head
I can't pretend
I hope it ends
can we be friends?
tell me your lies
give me your cries
I just don't care
that you're not there
there's no space left in my heart, and it's tearing us apart
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oh I'm wrong
I'm lost
I notice something out of reach
my hands are tied
call my eyes
they're covered by my arms
bloodshot red
watered with salinity
waiting for the syncope
I'm just the epitome
let this be the end of me
don't let my mind break free
I'm just the epitome
I'm just the epitome
of something that I cannot see
losing all my synergy
I'm just the epitome
holding all my feelings back
push it to the side
telling my own mother
that I don't have any pride
tell you that I'm doing fine
tell you that I lied
tell you that I'll never ever
succumb to your cries
I COME FROM PLACE OF PRIVILEDGE
DOESN'T MEAN I'M NOT ANGUISHED
I PULL UP TO THE SPOTLIGHT
ONLY TO TURN OFF THE GUISE
I'm just the epitome
let this be the end of me
don't let my mind break free
I'm just the epitome
I'm just the epitome
of something that I cannot see
losing all my synergy
I'm just the epitome
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life is like
a dead circle
spinning you out of sight
until you realize
I have been the same
this whole time but with a
slight disconnection
I got the same purpose
but it's not the right one
my useless self with a
side of fries
can't be the only one
can't be the only one
living the same days
living the same nights
seeing the neon lights
my vision creasing towards
nothing but screens and sorts
famously televised
tell me I'm right
tell me I'm right
tell me I'm right
tell me I'm right
eye for eye
is what you say
when you just want a fight
let me hold your hand
so I can manipulate
pulling the strings of my future
by loosely driven threads
inconveniences
sized to complex tests
none of the importance
useless tasks, hopeless future
but you still slave
why do you slave?
why do you slave?
why do you slave?
why do you slave?
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wanna be my boyfriend
hug me anytime yeah
dancin' in the parking lot
jamming to some old-school
its 100F yeah
when I'm walkin' with you
sunnin' all around
blushin', wishin' i could
kiss-
wanna-
wanna be my boyfriend
hug me anytime yeah
dancin' in the parking lot
jamming to some old-school
its 100F yeah
when I'm walkin' with you
sunnin' all around
blushin', wishin' i could
kiss you
baby hold me close
lemme hold you close
tight around my hips
yeah, first time
sippin' boba
never did I know
you'd be lookin' cuter
10 out of 10
supermodel
i'm a winner
take you out for dinner
pourin' champagne on the sofa
my life like a movie
wanna be the co-star?
paparazzi got me in a hold up
but baby you'll be with me for the night oh
wanna-
wanna be my boyfriend
hug me anytime yeah
dancin' in the parking lot
jamming to some old-school
its 100F yeah
when I'm walkin' with you
sunnin' all around
blushin', wishin' i could
kiss-
wanna-
wanna be my boyfriend
hug me anytime yeah
dancin' in the parking lot
jamming to some old-school
its 100F yeah
when I'm walkin' with you
sunnin' all around
blushin', wishin' i could
kiss you
ooh
wanna be my boyfriend
wanna be my boyfriend
ooh
don't got any time left
fuck me in the night yeah
ooh
wanna be my boyfriend
wanna be my boyfriend
ooh
baby hold my hand yeah
feels so nice yeah
wanna be my boyfriend
hug me anytime yeah
dancin' in the parking lot
jamming to some old-school
its 100F yeah
when I'm walkin' with you
sunnin' all around
blushin', wishin' i could
kiss you
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call me crazy and degenerate
cause you're talking all about me
to my friends you're so irreverent
and sound
squash my heart
baby I can't understand it
let the clouds go back in time
reset your love
I'm done
I can't
see you in this mess
you've changed
in years
is it because I'm too nice to you?
wave hello to the orange sky
bring my love to life
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it's been a crazy week, I like when I'm living
not stuck inside a building with the layout of a prison
wake up early and sit on a desk for 8 hours
only to turn off the lights and just take a hot shower
work won't set you free until you go to heaven
and while your coffin lowers, the bar raises to 11
new guy, take your supplements and count your wits
because the human body knows it can't handle shit
they feed us poison so we buy all their cures
living like rats until we conquer our fears
money grows on trees where they're always overwatered
milking the cash cow until they try and find another
fuck your culture and your success probability
spending your time and effort on just something to eat
I ain't no fool but I got to conform
because I know this shit has always been the norm
I'm slipping by with miles of pain
you know you can't let go without a stain
it sticks in your mind, fogs up the brain
but with you it's never ever the same
(RICKY'S VERSE)
from the moment I was born I know you held me down
was a baby in your streets I used to roam around
whether it was trekking through dirt paths
a bike in the town
yeah, it's moments like that that really get me down
cause I ain't see the clues that was filling me in
and I'm starting to get older and that truth starts to hit
so now I get it
greedy motherfuckers and they business
you play too nice and they not asking for forgiveness
they'll just keep taking
you stick to hiding all the feelings
yeah, you stay fakin'
happy on the surface but deep down
I know it's taking
its toll
I know
your soul
is in them places where they don't wanna go
THEY ALL SNAKES
they don't wanna tend to your core
instead they flatten the green and claim
that they build it more
it's the same people and they got a hold on you
and now I'm searching for an option
don't know what to do
cause I got big dreams that they don't want over here
and I gotta expand cause here they don't wanna here
and you know I love you but I gotta run away
the path was never drawn on
and other places will pay me
they'll be snakes in the grass
you better watch your step
that culture down south, that shit we gotta protect
not that corporate greed
kids can't play in the streets
cause there's a supermarket where there used to be a tree-
I'm slipping by with miles of pain
you know you can't let go without a stain
it sticks in your mind, fogs up the brain
but with you it's never ever the same
caught up in the break, caught up in the break
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fuck my
whole life
imma die alone
orange
sky when we last had our own
date night
suit, tie
aero cologne
never happened
cause idk
I don't wanna be around
I don't wanna fuck all night
first chain on my neck
it just doesn't feel right
small talk all the time
you never get a single sign
next thing you're on the phone
see you next week till I overdose
fear and anxiety
will kill my self-esteem
but at least my lover knows
he's giving me attention
something I'll never do
cause I don't have to mention
I'm caught up in my own self
minus the inflection
I hope you're doing fine
just give me extra time
baby it's all online
get off the phone, you're mine
get in the coffee line
our minds, we can't combine
just let me cry and whine
about my rejection
I don't wanna be around
I don't wanna fuck all night
first chain on my neck
it just doesn't feel right
small talk all the time
you never get a single sign
next thing you're on the phone
see you next week till I overdose
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*give me patience and I will stand beside you
always, give me patience-*
this ain't your world
why you live in it
beautiful things
what you make of it
beautiful girl
can I come through?
my ocean pearl
in a classroom
give me a sign
that you'll be mine
don't make me cry
when I kiss you
oh you're so why
yeah, me too
give me patience, patience
red haze, in the air
those streaks in your hair
I'm always beside you
can't wait for you
give me patience
I ain't medicated, oh
I don't really care for you
I have never loved at all
tell me what do to
read your DM's every night
I can't help but not reply
oh just give me strength tonight
to sleep on this wake up alright
I can't keep falling for you
I can't keep falling for you, for you
make my life hard
and my mood darker
got many problems
and I know you can't solve them
sleep the whole day and them shower after
in pitch black
thinking of all the things you have done
it's a mad thought
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now that summer's gone
I won't be around
no I don't wanna be here
no I don't wanna be here
again
friends all gone
I just wanna stay home
in my bed, what a mess
I'm a fuckin mess, yeah
times change
even when I just depressed
it just never goes away
and I can't get it over my head
these numbers shoot me in the back
like I'm dead
just kiss me and tell me I'm safe
but then my mind overreacts like
I'm a saint
bitch you ain't even dead yet
count the stars and I'll jet
I'm such a degenerate
maybe it's the sunset
rolling up the counterfeit
pills all in the cabinet
I don't see what's up with it
mourning in the morning
let the moonlight scorch me
ain't gonna let you talk to me
hang up let the beeper ring
show up on my TV screen
analog in my dreams
wake me up with your screams
oh hello, hello
misery
let me sleep
oh hello, hello
misery
let me sleep
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go on
leave me like everyone
don't stop
I'm not special
I don't need crap
just hold me
dispose me
and tell me
I'm ugly and
I'm just a trophy
for your mind but you can't
show your feelings
god, I hope you're not done on me
god, I hope you're not done on me
my golden spice
swollen eyes
see my pretentious mind
floating away
on this riverside
kiss me away
like you do always
bring me to shore
in some way
god I hope you're not done on me
god I hope you're not done on me
god I hope you're not done on me
god I hope
those blue lights
just show me
those bad looks
you're lonely
yeah, me too
except I'm not petty
post that shit in Instagram
get your likes
don't give a damn
you probably like my dog more than me
hit it from the back and I make a scene
gimme a shoulder I can lean
hug me tell me everything
text me like you care for me
but you already filled your needs
god, I hope you're not done on me
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I've been searching for you everyday
so I no longer feel pain
of no one to hug and hold
shut the windows to close
getting darker in the cold
every time I feel warmer
no motivation left
burnt out and reputation heft
fear for the future
riding till my ears turn
night drives and hangouts
stargaze and blackouts
(FREAK FORMAL's verse)
picking out the story, is it bad?
looking at the ending, is it sad?
when I turn 40 will I be back?
man up don't you give me fucking slack (ah, ah)
fuck up the end, fuck up the end
making me tear up loose, loose ends
regretting the choices I made in the end
wasted potential, ain't nobody cares
coping is maybe just going through the motions
just focus
it's bogus
figuring out who you are is the key to unlocking
freedom-
(ooh) (baby)
stay with me till midnight
ride with you till daylight
(ooh) (baby)
everything is alright
when you're always by my side
everything is alright
everything is fine
everything is alright
everything is fine
nobody hates you
nobody hates you
nobody loathes you
nobody loathes you
nobody loves you
nobody loves you
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ORANGE SKY is about getting in touch with my anxiety, and the difficulty it brings when transitioning to adulthood. Strenuous decisions tend to make me shut down and sulk, instead of facing issues head-on. It disrupts my relationships with other people, including my sexuality.
